Written by Salkis Re This is the last day of 2018.
You made it through… 2019 approaches and she a dinner plate placed in front of you with nothing on it, ready for you to fill it with delicious experiences, more confidence and self actualization than the year before.
But you will have to get over your need to be accepted though. You’ll have to learn to appreciate your alone time whether it’s experienced on purpose or by consequence.You will need to accept that you are not as perfect as you try so hard to make people believe. You may have to conclude that you are that smart or that your looks are just “mildly” attractive.
Disarm the Critic!
And the addition of the truth is not a downplay or self degradation because truthfully, you do that to yourself even with a cheering squad at your disposal..It’s about disarming the critic in your head once and for all..
What is your sweet spot,
your niche and where is that little corner called the “square” that your feet occupies for which no other feet can share? You cannot be everything, but its time to be DO what you actually can do. It’s time to pull off what fits YOU, not what’s trending. You jump around in emotional discord which you prefer to call *boredom, but *Boredom is just a kinder title for depression..
And you are depressed because you don’t like what you are.
SO we need to fix that.
Not with lies, but with the TRUTH for 2019.. Who Am I?
“Your Spirit Healer”~Salkis Re
Art by Salkis Re
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“You Can Be Anything, Now What?”
Written by Salkis Re
You want to learn how to levitate and walk through walls and see auras and things, but you can’t control what you put in your mouth or commit to anything practical that will assist in repairing your physical and mental state?????
Ohhh you better wake up during the “witching hours” and put some energy into your mortal life instead trying to find ways to run from your shame and guilt.
You Hide your low self esteem with finery and excess, and the only emotional sovereignty you can muster up is displayed in your ability to sexually seduce the minds of undisciplined people who are also looking to escape their reality.
And here you are, afraid and hesitant to do ALL the things that offer ACTUAL improvement to your flesh and bone life, so your solution is to fly away…
GROUND yourself and prepare to get your hands dirty rebuilding YOU. Do what you have to do so you can stop wishing you were a balloon…
Art by Salkis Re
Painting: “Am I Black Enough?”
Everywhere you turn, your emotions and insecurity is exploited for sensationalism and financial gain from “marketers” and “commentators” who are only concern with “click views”. I’m specifically talking about the “trend” to discuss topics concerning discrimination against dark skin women.
I’m watching these “leaders/healers/activists” of these dark skin movements rant and rave to you. I listen to them tell dark skin women dress up when going to the grocery store, or confront light skin women about their biases.
People are profiting and helping to perpectuate a stereotype where the only “gain” you actually receive is “justification” and validation for feeling inferior to lighter skinned women.
It’s a hamster wheel.
And they CANNOT help you to heal.
Step away from ALL “ME TOO” movements because ALL those “look at me, I’m sexy too” campaigns offer is a superficial, feel good “moment”
Your REPAIR will only come from understanding and accepting that NO MAN is obligated to WANT to fuck you, because that is what all this shyte is really about!
The sex force is making you feel like you are inferior because the sexual desires/perversions are not directed your way as they are with women of other skin tones and races. But let me give you dark skin women some facts: light skin women do not in any advantage over you. They suffer emotional breakdowns, identity crisis’s, self esteem issues, panic attacks, depression, suicidal thoughts, and sexual exploitation just like women of other skin tones do.
You HAVE to step away from your need to be accepted!
You have to decide that you are enough while expanding and improving yourself through self discipline, not joining no foaming at the mouth, fanatic who’s just pretending to be sincere.
You have to learn to love aloneness so that YOUR oWn thoughts can be heard by your heart .
Conformity has you looking EXTREMELY COUNTERFEIT, and an obvious BEGGAR for a seat at the table of EXPLOITED women who are seemingly at an advantage because society says they’re attractive.
You better think again!
NO WOMAN is better than you, do not fall for that lie!!!
And you have walk with that ideal until your nervous system relaxes when in the presence of ANY woman..
LOOKS ARE ALWAYS DECEIVING!!!!!!
I remember when I would put clothes pin on my nose to try to make my nose less ‘African’. I’d steal one from the clothes line and after I said my prayers, I’d put it on my nose to try to sleep with it on through the night.
Almost made it through the night
I tossed and turned under sheets trying to console myself through the discomfort, and of course I never actually made it through the night: My record for the longest time spent with that forking clothes pin on my nose was whopping two hours though.
I know it you know…
That feeling like you wish you born another way, as someone else. I would look at my mother and secretly be angry with her for mating with my dad because if she picked a lighter man, then I would have turned out prettier instead of this black and ugly that my peers called me everyday.
I thought I was Ugly
Now, my father was a handsome man. Hands down ‘Sagga Boy‘ as they say in Trinidad. I loved my father dearly, I was a ‘daddy’s girl’ through and through.
But I was tall like him,
But I had big lips like him,
But I had his nose
But I was dark like him,
so I thought I looked ugly because I looked like him and to like him meant I looked like a boy.And to top of that notion,( in my child mind) I also thought that boys should be dark and girls should be light-skin cause that’s all I saw in the media, my community etc.
It took years to get over my suppositions about beauty; It took years of allowing myself to be used, believing the biases of society and being played by the people I loved and respected for me to realize the lies.
You have to ‘decide’ to have self esteem. And in your decision to value yourself comes the responsibility of how you ‘act’ and what you do to support that. People are more concerned with themselves than you, so the approval you are seeking from others is never going to come. And They can’t give you approval because are in search of it for themselves too!
Your notions of yourself, if based solely on the reaction or response from other people, will be false and that’s whether they give you a compliment or a dis! Be careful with kindwords too. You could become a slave to ‘positive reinforcement’ also. I’ve met gorgeous women who are used to hearing that they are gorgeous, and still get in a panic attack if the ‘aggrandizing’ from others is nonexistent or comes in a little slow.
And those early thoughts of myself is a major reason behind my artistry. I see the power of imagery.
You either Create who you want to be, or let others tell you what you are.
Which will you choose?