Written by Salkis Re
What is a hoe? I’m sitting here at my computer desk this morning thinking of something inspiring to write and that question just popped up in my mind.
I am haunted by my hot pursuit of and relentless contemplations around being a woman, a SATISFIED woman.
So I am thinking about my past lovers, why chose them and if I’d do things differently. I admit to you that I made choices in lovers with a cloud of limiting beliefs over my head. I told myself that I can’t have this, Im not entitled to that, all men do this, so I’d better just do that sort of thing.
Always settling. Always “agreeable“.
Why? Because I was more concerned with “purity”, with keeping myself ‘honorable” and unsullied than satisfied and compensated….
My vagina’s “body count” was low; my mind insisted that I had to keep it low because I associated my self worth with ‘how many’ got to plow my wet flower pedals. I was more concerned about that than being sexually satisfied actually.
Awww, the self murder, the useless priorities, the posing…
Episode after episode of sexual “duty” with little to no sense of DUTY cycled back to me.
And with every man I laid with, there was a “filthiness” left behind, not because of the act itself although I have come to conclusion that body fluids that are NOT yours are likened unto a noxious, petre dishes of frothing pus and bloody spores waiting to invade and hatch inside your yoni through his ejaculation.(I want to throw my phone away after rereading that last line)
The *filthy feeling was from being “duped” though. I thought it was the ACT OF SEX itself, but with further examination of my feelings the “humiliation” I felt was from the unkept “promises” from these men.
My stupidity was believing in “dreams” , and Acting like the things he expressed that HE wanted, were the things he wanted with ME. More times than not, my assumption was for naught.
So I had sex for broken promises.
I had sex for “Thank You, that was great”
I had sex to show that I was committed, a team player.
I had sex to prove my worth.
And got ‘nothing” in return…. nothing to brag about at least…
Hump….. shaking my head….
It took me a looooooooong time to come to a solid conclusion about the value o sex, its purpose in a woman life I mean…
It wasn’t the *body count* that was ‘dishonorable’ or reduced my self worth, it was these MOTHER SUCKIN BYTCHE MADE MEN WHO USED MY VAGINA FOR THEIR BENEFIT WITHOUT RECIPROCATING the benefits they received that TAINTED my soul and my perception of my own SELF worth!!!
Not getting what I was promised is WHAT BROUGHT ME GUILT, PAIN AND SHAME….
That’s a revelation, isn’t it? But if you give it some thought, you might share in my conclusions.
The gag is this: EVERY woman who is NOT a VIRGIN is a WHORE.
- AND We ALL will wear these HATS
We are born the MAIDEN.
Become the WHORE/WIFE
Then The MOTHER
Then the WIDOW
The typical cycle of a woman life…
So being a whore is an inevitable consequence if you take one dkye in your mouth or 25.
Your goal isn’t to AVOID BECOMING A WHORE!! Your goal is to use your sexuality for the betterment of YOUR life through marriage/commitment/ AND MONEY!!!
If you are JUST looking for pleasure, if you are merely using your vagina as a n instrument for pleasure on your part or HIS, you are wasting your essential slime.
You are putting wear and tear on your body for NO JUST CAUSE.
Sex is GOOD, SEX IS OUTSTANDINGLY MAGNIFICENT in fact IF its accompanied with a PURPOSE and a goal that reaps benefits long after you’ve washed his slime from your cervix.
Mother’s Day is coming and some of you will open your knees in gratitude of the Roses and Roasted Chicken and Mash Potato dinner that you could have bought for yourself..
So what it the truth about your value?
You get to decide/enforce what it is.
No matter what ‘offer’ is put in front of you, YOU still get to say whether its acceptable or not.
And it’s your AGREEMENT with that offer that dictates what you are, NOT THE OFFER ITSELF!!!
The moment you say YES to anything given to you, your value is then etched in stone!
So the moral here is what?
That you are a whore.. And there is nothing in THAT to be ashamed about.
And the ONLY time should be ashamed about putting a penis in your vagina, whether WIFE or GIRLFRIEND is when no stable PROVISIONS accompany your vaginal lubrication.
“PUT ON YOUR BLACK HAT”
Life Coach| Artist| Author| Poet
Art by Salkis Re
So if any of this resonates with you, and you want MORE wisdom personalized to help you fight your insecurities and mediocre relationships, I am your girl.
Why me? Cause I’ve been the underdog for most of my life.
While a painful position it has been, it was also a gift, because people rarely were pretentious around me. People are only compelled to pretentiousness if they feel the need to “Impress” you.
They didn’t with me, BUT this gave me the opportunity to see into people’s souls, to see the true nature of men AND women..
Don’t come to me if you want to feel good. I don’t do any of that. You come to me to solve your problems and most of the time it will not be pleasant, but it will FREE YOU!