Yes darling, pain can be a true gift to your life if utilized correctly. But most of you will not use it. You will run from it. You run because you actually feel that you can get away from your feelings. Sure you can distract yourself for a little while, or “pretend” to have moved on like most of you do, but destiny still arrives to meet you.
You worry about how you look: Daily.
You worry about him not loving you: Daily.
You insist on being happy and having all the things “they” say are needed in order to experience that.
But you really never reach that Utopia they promise you when you supposedly “let go” and let it flow.
You take pics to show people how great your life is, how much weight you’ve lost, how sexy you hope THEY think that YOU think you are, now and so on, but inside….. Your mind sends you reminders that you are not well, and you become extremely ashamed and depressed that the pain caught up to you again.
Will you change?
It’s not impossible that you will, it’s just not probable that you will.
Because it takes being present and conscious and having vigilant watchfulness to change, and most people prefer to divorce themselves from “thinking” too much.
Thinking itself is given a bad rap, and most people who do express deep thoughts are considered pessimistic, cat-shit crazy nut bags with nothing better to do than look for everything wrong with the world.
But pain is the light bulb that helps you SEE where you are if you can bear to look. Joy does not bring enlightenment like pain because joy is “inspirational” while pain is a “Learning/ Experiential” encounter.
What you have been through HURTS, but that hurt can have usefulness when you conclude that you HAVE to change if you’re going to survive this thing called LIFE…
“The Black Hat Society”
“Artist/Life Coach/Medicine Woman”