Conquering Self Defeat
By Salkis Re
Transforming is dirty business
You can’t f;&$k your way out of pain! You are tired. You are fed up with your condition. You have tried to change things to no avail. You entertain yourself through the pain, you eat and gorge food through the pain, you try to f;&$k your way out of the pain.
You burn candles and hug trees underneath the moonlight in hopes of winning fortunes and thwarting pain. You meditate while frustrated and worried.
You spruce yourself up with new hair do’s and fresh pedicures that aid as “posers” to true self care. These are great things to do, but not so great as a replacement for the internal work required for victory over “self defeat. No! Love cannot *love you out of the muck and mire; however, you can -cope- with it a bit better ,yet it will just manifest in other things like binge eating, depression etc. Can you become a goddess without adversity? Can you become a master without trials and tests? What is the need for bravery if you have nothing to fear? Your anguish is not the problem! We all have things that challenge our resolve. The problem is that you are not utilizing your adversity to change your life! “Go along to get along” is what you’ve been doing, and now, living in pain has become your new normal. “Smiling Depressive” is what I lovingly call you. When are you going to muster up enough courage to just admit that something is wrong with this way of living? I have news for you! You are not gonna smile or deny your way through transformation!
Your going to have to walk through the “shadow of death” to truly transform and become a new person. You have to face your dragons and slay them with valarian steel! You are going to have to make a decision that charity and giving of yourself requires that you first are able to regenerate what you give to others. You give away what you can’t afford to give because of guilt and this superstition in the benefit of humility: you are trying to replaced your feelings of unreservedness by pretending to be satisfied with being a “giver”, for you are ashamed to receive. Take my hand, I will lead you through the shadow of death with the rod and staff to slay the serpents waiting to bite your heel. Its time to transform.
~Salkis Re “Life Coach”